Whit in the World

Have you ever hit that moment when every single thing is getting to you?  Getting you upset? Angry? Annoyed? Sad? Flustered? Confused? Frustrated?  Just getting you into a "negative headspace"? Currently, this has been me for the past two days... well, possibly more but I am trying to face it head-on for the past two days and it is not working. So, I am pulling out some of my old techniques and hoping that by the time I am done I will have the root of the problem nipped.

I would be lying if I said that I never begged for anything. I have begged, pleaded, and in certain situations lost all self-respect in the manner that I refused to let go. With each situation, each circumstance, and each "chapter" in my life that has come and gone... I can say that the growth I have experienced is beyond words. I want to explain it to you but in all honesty, I don't know-how. When I saw this post on Instagram it spoke to my soul on so many different levels it was a little scary but the two that stood out most related to dating and friendships.  The truth is that when you are dealing with a person, regardless if it is intimate or platonic, you should not have to beg for the basic parts of interactions that come with sincere relationships. If a person loves you they will be there for you, not when it is beneficial for them but when they can be there. They will be there for you at your worst and celebrate your best with you. They will care that yo

I think some of the men I've had the "pleasure" of dating lately  are emotionally unavailable and utilize my kind-hearted disposition unintentionally to feel affection while they heal. All done subconsciously but none the less done to fill a void but in the process realize they don't actually want me for whatever reason BUT keep coming around because there is something that they can't understand that tethers them to my spirit/ energy/ aura... So I am asking God and all the energies at be to bless me with a man that is emotionally open to developing a relationship with me from a genuine place. That has a real chance of blossoming into a relationship if that is what is in store for us. And I ask God and the all the energies at be to bless me to let go of the hope of love from a man I know is so broken he still can't love me the way I deserve. I ask that my energy doesn't ooze desperately for affection or attention but truly gives off that I am deservi