Sunday, November 23, 2014

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I need...

I don't think it's healing I need. 

I need peace in my home, that way my heart can finally rest. 
I want to finally be able to recover from the major heartache that I faced from someone I expected to build an empire with. I want to be able to here his name and not think that my last was supposed to be the same. I want to be able to smile when I hear songs that used to be "ours". I want to be able to say that my heart is a glow and not that I am letting my shield grow. 

I want to come home and not deal with issues of someone in my home when I rather be alone. I want to be able to be free in my own space and able to move at my own pace. I want to be able to sing and dance without someone thinking that they control more than what they do. I want to be able to tell them to go and not worry about a thing. 

I need serenity, so I am no longer stressed and can enjoy that I am blessed. 
I want to be able to enjoy each blessing without stressing about the way things will play out. I want to know what each decision I make is really about. I think that there are times that it is all just going great but I want to know it is better than what happened on a previous date. 

I need joy without the drama because I am tired of crying to my mama
There are too many tears being shed and few are tears of joy. I know that it is at times needed but nevertheless I want them to stop. I want to reach the top without having to hit rock bottom. I want to smile for days without having to feel the pains. I want pure bliss that is so good I want even remember the pain missed. I want to be able to tell her how well I am doing and the growth that I have made. Not cry about the time wasted and little bit of my heart I am lucky to have saved. Oh, when I cry to her the next time it better be on graduation day. Tears of joy while I say I have made it all this way!

I need this crap to end, stop picking the wrong lovers and friends.
I have gone so many years with picking the wrong one. The wrong boyfriend, the wrong friend... even the wrong best friends. I have done it so many times. I think that we all have at one point. I want to be able to finally pick the right one... or at least have the right ones pick me. I want the people in my future to be heaven sent and I want the people remain from my past to be blessed and our presences to benefit each other in more ways than one. 

I need my life in one piece.
I want to know that each time I smile it is for the right thing. I want my friends to be true and to never come to an end. I want my family to be strong and never bend. When times get hard and the love seems to drift away, I want my smile to brighten up the darkness and show the way. No matter what happens, I need to find peace, love, joy, and blessings. I will get there one day and I won't stop until my smile is forever resting. 

Monday, November 10, 2014

Worthy Life Guru Returns

It has been quite sometime since I have been on here.... last time I logged in I accidentally   deleted over 20 of my favorite post!

Anyways since the last time I was on I am able to reflect on several aspects of life that I now have experienced and can say that I have survived.

So, what does that mean for you?

Be ready for the Life Guru to give some personal advice to walk you through life experiences that others may not understand fully. I am not not in your shoes and you did not walk miles in mine but we may stumble down the same path together.