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Messages to Myself: Be in love with...

It's better to be single and focus on building yourself than in a relationship that kills your spirit daily. Be in love with someone who makes you glow daily. Be in love with someone who can't dream of being with another person. Be so in love with yourself that you won't settle or make excuses for the hurtful things people say and do. Listen to what your mate says and if it cuts like a knife don't make an excuse for it but actually hear them. They may be telling you already or showing you it's not meant to be. Don't be scared to let go and always let God do what is needed. It kills us to believe that letting go of the wheel, putting down our architectural pen for our blue print is the right choice. But I have learned when you let God, he will always steer you the right way. He will always make sure you are protected and loved correctly inside and out.

Messages to Myself: Oh, I have learned.

Good Morning, So I wake up to a voice telling me and encouraging me to let go. The voice sounded like my own but something in me told em it was heaven sent. Told me I don't deserve to be in a relationship like this. I don't need him and if it's God's will for us to be together then he will say something or do something to prove it. But why am I holding on to someone who continuously  puts me on an emotional roller coaster and strings my heart along? Why do I love so passionately but stay with someone who tells me that my love and everything I do is substandard? Why am I with a black man that calls me "Queen" but treats me like a peasant? I am heaven sent, blessed, and a joy but I have never felt so low before in my whole life. Especially emotionally because of a person I thought loved me. I am stronger and better than this, so why do I stay? Because of hope? Because my heart doesn't want to let go? Because I would feel like I have lost and let the ot