One of the things I hate

I know I shouldn't write this note but for those of you who really want to share it with the rest of the world then cut and paste it but make sure you let everyone know that Whitney L Johnson wrote this moment of truth.


As I walked through the hall anger washed over me. Actually from the moment I entered the party that I had attended earlier tonight at someone's house is when my fire was started. Now my fire is ablaze and if someone looked into my eyes they would be amazed because the cool hatred that was there would kill with just one glance if directed at the right person and given the chance. I am beginning to realize that there are three things in life that I hate but the one thing that I hate most especially in relation to my friends is seeing them cry. I've written poems that have been related to my friends emotions on more than one occasion but this time I'm too angry to even muster the sanity and creativity to just write a poem, I'll save that for later on today. I hate watching my friends cry over guys who don't deserve there affection or attention. And I know that I have done it myself and that a lot of girls continue to do it every night right before they go to sleep or right before facing the world and making everyone think everything is ok, when in fact it is not. I HATE these flaw...no I am going to speak completely correctly with this one. I HATE men or young men or boys or anyone of the male population who dares disrespect any female. I don't care what she did or did not do for him, no women deserve to have a broken heart and soaked pillow. And we've all had that at least once in our lives either the heartache or soaked pillow, some have had both. Its truly not fair that no matter what a girl does it seems she can't find a guy who is worth her all. Or maybe that is just out here with most of the black males on this campus. Even the one's with girlfriend aren't that great, which is sad because it makes it hard for a girl to trust anyone. 

Anyways let me focus on a point through all this nonsense and sleep deprived babble. A girl is priceless. Not worth the best sex you have to offer, an amazing night of unforgettable "head" that you can do in a hand stand ...cough....or any other sexual thing that a guy has to offer. A girl is worth more than being shown attention when you are ready or when you are not getting your own share. A girl is worth more than a guys pride, which at times needs to be put aside. A girl is worth more than lame lines and unoriginal game. A girl is worth more than a midnight snack and late nights of momentary heat. She is worth more than anyone person can fathom. And that's only talking about a GIRL! Now a young lady or a woman not only is priceless but she DESERVES BETTER THAN THE BEST! And ladies, along with some of the gentlemen out there, all need to realize that this is true. Since a women deserves BETTER THAN THE BEST than means it could be she no longer needs to wait for this guy who continue to play games and look past the 80% in his life for the 20%. ( Watch Tyler Perry's "Why did I get married?" to understand the concept). Ladies we have to sometimes let go of our seemingly 80% to find that 100% we are looking for and that we deserve.They saying is "if you really care about someone you have to let them go and if they come back to you that's how you know". Meaning that it's time to them those guys go and see what happens. Sometimes we have to look past our heart and actually listen to our heads when it screams "NO" and "STOP". Because that is logic kicking in trying to save your heart from having its shattered pieces ground into dust. I am beginning to take my own advice and may have stumbled onto someone that is different but I know that before anything I am going to make sure I get everything I DESERVE and that he treats me like I'm PRICELESS! 

I am tired of guys playing these games with girls head and hearts. In the end it seems like the only person who truly ends up hurt is the female. I am tired of guys confusing a girl to the point of no return and then when she moves on in any shape or form he has the audacity to be JEALOUS or HURT! WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? Please someone explain this double standard. These guys expect girls, young ladies...WOMEN to sit around and wait for them to get tired of their games and be ready to say the "c" word and settle down but in the meantime these lovely women have to sit and wait in a corner with a blindfold on without exploring an ocean that has men who are willing to settle down with them and have not the "c" but the whole word, COMMITMENT, tattooed on their head. These guys want the appetizer, the entree, the sides, the dessert, the left overs, the drink and anything else they can stuff down their throats and include in their meal while the "main" sits in a corner and waits for him to finish with all of that and turn his attention back on her....And again I have to ask WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? Some of these women that are in corners waiting on you, are turning away BLACK PEARLS to settle for common COPPER! ( Black Pearls are real and very hard to find. They're worth hundreds or thousands while copper is only worth a hundredth...think about that.) 

Well I'm done for now....It's late and I'm tired. If you want to read my other note entitled I'm the girl and there is also one entitled Some Problems I have, these two notes address some issues a lot better and more coherently than this note probably did. Leave your comments, concerns and advice. 

Whit "Truthful" Johnson

I'm the Girl...

I'm the girl your mother told you about and the female that your boys warn you about. I'm the girl that scares you and makes you play games. I'm the girl that will make everyone other girl just seem lame. I'm the girl in your dreams. I'm the girl that will be there to the end because I'm more than just a lover and a friend. I'm the girl that makes you put away your cane, put an end to your player game and make you say the "c" word over and over again. I'm past the status of the "main", I'm better than "wifey" or the "old lady" and I can do more than rock your world. I'll make you see heaven when you make love to me. I'm better than the girl in your fantasy....Who am I you ask? I'm the girl who will make you forget your past, savor the present and look forward to the future. I'm the girl that you will get on one knee in the rain just to claim that I will forever be your everything....That's me.


Now the problem with that is the fact that most guys aren't ready to just have one girl at a time, which is the downfall of most women. I am not better than the next girl by any means or judging anyone in this note. I'm just saying what I AM and what is expected of me are two different things that are at opposite ends of the spectrum. Due to the fact that a girl cannot have a relationship by herself, she will settle for whatever a guy is willing to give her since she is only left with that option. That is not fair by any means. Most girls want more than just momentary pleasure for one night, a fling, a booty call or even a “buddy”. I am not talking for every female because some people want just that, while others know that is all they can get and will settle for it without putting up a fight since they are tired of fighting.

A guy will consider a girl prude because she will not give it up on the first night. A guy will consider a girl a hoe is she plays the same games that he does everyday. A guy will consider a girl to play games because she turns him on and then stops him before they get to have sex. But did this guys ever think that the girl who won't give it up he first night could honestly just be too far above him and have higher standards than his doggish dumb horny ass. Or the hoe that plays the game that guys play, well in all honesty if she is a hoe then listen up and closely SO ARE YOU!No you are not a player or cool or a pimp you are just as nasty if you feel that way about a female doing the same thing you did, or as I call it "Flipping the script". Deal with it and move on. And another example is the girl that gave it up the first night might just be tired of waiting for the right guy because they no longer seem to exist and final gave it or you were lucky enough to be graced with getting with her for even that one night because she trusted or thought you could be different. Oh and the tease I can speak on from personal experience and since I have been given the nickname I might as well. The girl that you guys consider a tease sometimes don't really want to have sex with you or they would but remember that they have morals, values that they almost let hormones get the best of them and just have sex with you. Other times its something else that is going on that you wouldn't understand, but as for me, I honestly find it funny that a guy can't control themselves enough to pass a simple test and always try to have sex with every female they find somewhat attractive and that some guys are so used to getting it that easy they don't know how to act either. 

Oh most people want to know what the test is and that is can a guy wait long enough to get to know a girl. This test is put into effect because I personally know a female back in Broward County who is going around having unprotected sex with as many guys as she can. This girl has about seven different STD’s and she knows she has them. They are non-curable also. NOW I BET YOU ARE WONDERING WHAT THIS HAS TO DO WITH THE TEST….AND I WILL TELL YOU! The test is to see is a guy is willing to get to know me before he lays down with me because of the fact that he could be very willing to sleep with anyone and never know what they have since he just met them on the first night. Also, as a female I have more to loose than any guy does if we have sex and things go down hill. Why should I take the chance of catching something or getting pregnant just to help some guy I just met not have blue balls in the morning? Like I have been telling guys since middle school and yes I said middle school, “ God gave you a hand for a reason, so use it.”

Sorry for the rambling that was in there but I feel that was needed. In part because I continue to meet guys that I am attracted to just to find out all they want is a buddy…Sorry Boys but I want and well I deserve way more than that.